Listening to the subtle wisdom that whispers through the magical vessel of your body is almost impossible at first.
Decades of programing that has trained you to be nice, polite and kind to others has also taught you to ignore, push aside and abandon your-self.
Your desire to be loved, belong and feel safe has created a vault in which your longings, your objections, your cravings, your clarity, your intuition, your impulses and your aliveness has been locked away so as to not rock the boat that holds and houses you.
And after some time, be it weeks, years or decades there is no more room in the vault. So you go about building a bigger vault, with stronger walls, thicker chains and bigger padlocks.
You become tired, exhausted even, spending so much time and energy maintaining your vault. You feel engorged inside as it takes up more and more space and eventually it seems there is no room to move.
And then it happens. As you open the lid just a sliver to shove in yet one more small, seemingly insignificant impulse, the vault explodes.
For a moment, until you manage to force the lid closed once again, a torrent of sadness flows, volcanic rage erupts, fear tremors... like a unexpected and uninvited earthquake through your tender body.
It is terrifying. You'd forgotten what you'd put in that vault, or that it even existed. Until now. And you realise that you've been numb for years or maybe decades to the possibilities that lay dormant within.
You begin to remember that a long long time ago you chose to hide your true self away in the name of safety... and now realise is was not 'safe' at all.
As you take a closer look you begin to see that the vault is powerful beyond your mind's belief. It is in fact not a vault at all, but a treasure chest. A place where you've hidden your most valuable riches that were too bright, too unsafe, too much in contrast to a culture that hasn't learnt how to feel, and sense and listen to the subtle wisdom of its human bodies.
It seems scary at first, to look inside. There is soooo much in there that it can appear toooo big to let out. Something in you knows it will be worth it. Even though it may take time... and will... and courage... a life-force like you've never known before is waiting. All you need to do is commit to stepping (one step at a time) into the unknown and trust the gifts that these treasures have to offer.
As your curiosity draws you to look inside, you will be called to create and lean in to new spaces and friends and cultures even, within which to express and release your treasures from your chest.
And they will be wild, and unruly and even crazy at first. And they will need these new spaces and new friends and new cultures to hold them as they spill out.... Let them be. They have been locked in that tight dark chest for way too long.
Open your chest and let the treasure pour out.
What you will most likely discover in the process, is that your permission to release your treasures, over time, is in itself, the revealing of a new story where safety and love and belonging emerges from within.
And once the big rains pour and the storms roll through and the earthquakes shake you to your core... the seas will calm and you you will have infinite space within for all of your longings, your objections, your cravings, your clarity, your intuition, your impulses and your aliveness that were once locked away, to flow through... to be seen... to be valued... to be heard... to be loved... most importantly, by you.
And in the spaciousness of being you, you attune to the Subtle Sensory Wisdom that is speaking through you in every breathing moment. Guided by all that is... you.
For some time now I've had the visual of my life force energy being made up of 4 streams of energy that all intertwine.
Not mixed together...
Each stream clear in and of itself... while also in a dance with each other.
Each stream having a different flavour, sense, colour and purpose. This purpose being its gifts that are stronger when they are all in flow together.
Like a 4 wire electrical cable or a musical score made up of 4 different tracks.
Each track being music of it's own yet when played altogether, creating a magical symphony that is greater than the sum of its parts.
I love the idea that when our energy is in flow we all are dancing through life to our own unique musical track.
Access to the track is dependent on if there is flow or blocks in each stream of energy.
These streams of energy are our 4 core feelings; Anger, Sadness, Fear and Joy.
In their pure form they have and abundance of magical gifts.
The main ones being Clarity, Connection, Intuition and Magnetic Leadership however there are ALOT more.
When we halt the flow of energy due to cultural stories that tell us these energies are dangerous, disruptive, weak and attention seeking we halt our access to these gifts.
Similar to when Brene Brown says that we can't simply isolate and numb one feeling without numbing them all to some extent.
When the energetic flow of feeling that holds valuable information is squashed it builds up like a dam creating emotional pressure and often physical pain.
And one day, when the dam get's too full for it's container, (your body) it will erupt, overflow, explode, burst out.
You may have experienced what I'm talking about.
You have a choice to take responsibility for your internal dams by creating space to release them safely before they spew out all over someone you love.
Get in touch with us if you'd like to find out more about how you can create space for this in your life.
You know that idea you've been sitting on for a long time now...
That project you haven’t started...
That conversation you keep putting off…
That inner voice that's been wanting to speak up... rather than being pushed down or exploding out?
You keep telling yourself that you’ll start soon… you’ll create time for the conversation… you’ll quit the job… you’ll take the course… you’ll ask for help… you'll say 'no more!'... you’ll take the action that you know you need to take.
It’s all well and good to keep convincing yourself that you you’re GOING to do the thing. But unless you actually START you’re just feeding yourself false truths. And that’s not very self loving.
To take action on anything you need a healthy relationship with the life-force energy that is the source of clarity, courage, vitality… and action. That energy is Anger.
When suppressed, Anger either implodes or explodes and the results can be damaging to both your inner and outer environments. Implosion can result in physical and/or mental illness while the results of explosive Anger are often disconnection and/or damage to self or other.
Only when you take a different course of action do you get a different result. Reclaiming Anger means intentionally befriending and harnessing this energy and using it as fuel to get up off your seat and take the action you’ve been wanting to take.
Stacia is a co-founder of The Art of Relating. A Writer, Facilitator, Speaker and Wisdom Keeper.